At War With Myself

I've lost the poem I wrote about it... which makes me sad... but nonetheless I shall explain my thoughts about the subject. I have always talked to myself a lot, but lately I have become more aware of it, and have even clearly identified the two sides that are constantly at battle. On the one side is my heart, and on the other is my head. My emotion, vs. my logic. They just have so many different opinions that sometimes it feels like I am two different people! So I wrote about it. I wrote about the war my heart and head have with one another.

This semester I am taking an amazing class: Social Psychology. (Don't worry this relates to the paragraph above!) It makes me laugh because the recent topic in class was the "low brain" and the "high brain". The low brain is a person's quick spur of the moment decisions and actions. It is extremely fast and fairly accurate, but not always. It is also very emotional. The high brain is slower, but much more accurate at figuring out a problem, or judging a situation. It is the logic side. Crazy!! Low brain = heart. High brain = head.

I was elated in class upon learning this. I really do have two sides to me!!

I just love learning about psychology! I still want a minor in it even if it has so little to do with architecture (except... architecture involves dealing with people... so maybe I should go for it!) Anyways, examples of the low brain that my amazing Professor, Dr. Shannon, gave were so fun and helpful. She described a baseball player- an outfielder. If they used their high brain and took the time to figure out how to catch the baseball, they would never make it in time to actually catch it. It is the low brain that takes over and causes the catch. How do they do it? It can't be described. Driving is a function of the low brain- you leave and arrive at your destination without really knowing the specifics of your trip, unless something crazy happens and your high brain kicks in to help you out of the dilemma. The low brain makes your heart beat, makes you blink; all these things it takes care of so you don't have to think about it, you just do it.

She also told a great story about sports. After someone does something amazing, ask them "how did you do that!?" Without fail, they will mess up the next time they try. They have engaged their high brain and try to figure out, how do I do that? And thinking about it too much messes them up. Hilarious right?? I know it works on me!

So I just wanted to share how excited I was that I'm not making up the war that rages within me at times. My heart will continue to be overly emotional and overly concerned, and will freak out about the little things, while my head will be there to tell the heart to calm down, that things will all work out in the long run. Or, just to shut up and stop being a baby. (Sometimes my head is mean.)

Such a great concept!